I can't get over the blessings of the weekend past.  Ushered into the presence of God in music, cast at the foot of the cross through His Word, shown His Glory through the lives of believers.   God has given me the privilege of serving in an awesome ministry. On Sunday, I helped with Baptism class and videotaping testimonies. It's hard to describe how the Holy Spirit worked through the fears and doubts of thirty people, who did something they thought they'd never be able to do. Sharing your story, God's story, in front of a camera is intimidating to say the least. Most of us are uncomfortable with a microphone. But over and over, as we prayed and encouraged one another, I witnessed the truth that we can do all things through Christ Jesus... that He has "not given us a spirit of fear, but one of power and love and of sound mind." And, bless His name, it was God that was glorified through the sharing of those testimonies. To hear one after another tell about how He had transformed their lives, and their marriages, and their families. It was a prayer in itself, those voices, lifted up in praise of Jesus, who had done what seemed impossible.

I think of where I am today, and how God has transformed me, and it is difficult to share how He has loved me  through the darkest days of my life. When I was thirty five, I was living life the way I thought I could to get through. An image of the perfect family, kids, a life that many would envy. I was good at showing the world a smile. But beneath that,, it was if I was carrying an armful of balloons..trying to hold it all together, and knowing that if one balloon let loose,  they'd all go.  My marriage was a mess, my husband was involved in an ongoing affair, I was depressed, and desperate.  There were so many things wrong with the way I was living, and dealing with the pain of past choices and present circumstances. I wanted to die.  I could not imagine that there was any hope for me. I knew about God...I went to church, I learned about the flannel board Jesus. But He was not real to me.

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[Beth]

I can tell you have been transformed because you don't seem like that at all now. You radiate God's love to the world! Following Jesus does change us for the better. I know I've certainly changed.