Feeling a bit beside myself these days.
Our lives have changed. From the moment we heard "cancer,' we are different. In many ways, this thing is proceeding at a pace that is hard to keep up with, so we just get dragged along for the ride. Researching, phone calls, thinking, praying, talking. We are hopeful and strong, scared and weak. Some days, we are visitors in our own life. Other days we are in bed with this disease....being more intimate with cancer than we ever cared to.
Friday, JR and I are going to Roswell Park to begin the process of treatment. And I don't want to think past Friday, for I know "tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."
Tomorrow I want to talk about knitting. But today, I had to talk about this.
So, my friends, I ask for you to pray for us. For me? I want to knit and love and serve and laugh and eat cupcakes and bless others.
You've been in my thoughts and of course I will continue to pray for you - for strength and understanding, for recovery and peace throughout the process.
Posted by: Carole | April 28, 2008 at 12:04 PM
We are all here sending love and good thoughts to both of you. Keep your chins up
Posted by: Dani | April 28, 2008 at 12:11 PM
You, JR and family are certainly in my prayers & never wonder that you're a blessing to others, you bless us each day.
Posted by: Mary | April 28, 2008 at 12:19 PM
You are in my prayers.
Posted by: Chery | April 28, 2008 at 12:30 PM
I will certainly keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by: Hillary | April 28, 2008 at 12:45 PM
Sending you much love and every good thought imaginable, to lift you and JR up at this time. Take good care.
Posted by: Michelle | April 28, 2008 at 12:45 PM
Many prayers are said and sent for you and JR. One day at a time everyday anyhow, is the best way to live. Today, just today.
Everyday is a great day to ask for prayers and know others are praying with you.
Wishing you His Peace. Wishing you a good nap. WIshing you laughter or at least a grin. KNow that good nurses and docs are everywhere. May you be in their capable, kind hands no matter their Religion, gender or age.
Posted by: kathy b | April 28, 2008 at 12:47 PM
Praying... May you know how deep and wide and long and high is the love of Christ.
Posted by: Anita | April 28, 2008 at 12:51 PM
praying for your both.
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Posted by: heatherly | April 28, 2008 at 12:57 PM
I'm sorry, so very sorry. I've been reading your blog regularly for a short while now, and didn't realize this was going on with you (I guess it's you?). I will certainly add you and your family to my prayers. I hate cancer. I hate the enemy for putting it on those we love. He has no right, you know! We are children of the King, King's kids! We need to stand on that authority when we pray.
Posted by: Renna | April 28, 2008 at 01:09 PM
I'll be praying for you and yours...and I'd love your prayers for me and mine. My Dad finds out in the next few days the results of his latest Cat scan to see if anything has moved into the soft tissue. Scarey times, but I trust, and I know you trust that God is in complete control of both of our situations. We can rest in that at least.
Posted by: Stacey | April 28, 2008 at 01:16 PM
Wow, I'm not sure who or what, since I did not see the flukey post....know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by: Michele | April 28, 2008 at 01:26 PM
You both are in my prayers.
Posted by: Lynda | April 28, 2008 at 01:40 PM
I add my prayers to the rest. Life is difficult to understand at times, but I have often thought that in the things that have been brought into my life...how would I do it without the Lord? I cannot even imagine. I'm glad you have Him to lean on during this time. Rest in His loving arms and know that He cares for you much more than you can even imagine!
Posted by: Sherri | April 28, 2008 at 01:49 PM
Sending good energy, warm thoughts, patience and remembering you in my prayers.
Posted by: Marta | April 28, 2008 at 01:59 PM
Praying for you all.
Posted by: Meredith | April 28, 2008 at 02:02 PM
Of course you are in my prayers.
I didn't read the flukey post either so this is a bit of a shock. Take care.
Posted by: Elizabeth | April 28, 2008 at 02:07 PM
It's a rollercoaster ride. I remember so vividly sitting in the waiting room after my mum had had her diagnosis, after 2 months of tests and more tests, and we were waiting to see the surgeon, and the waiting room had lots of leaflets about cancer. And all I could think was 'that applies to us now'. Cancer is one of those things that happens to other people. It's such a shock when it actually happens to you or a loved one.
In two months time I'll be running the Race for Life (http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/cybeledejong). I registered because of mum, but will be thinking about lots of other people who I know and have been touched by cancer. You'll both be in my thoughts.
Best of luck for Friday.
Posted by: Cybèle | April 28, 2008 at 02:19 PM
I'm definitely sending lots of healthy, cleansing, happy, healing, positive thoughts your way.
Posted by: Sarah | April 28, 2008 at 02:55 PM
I came across this (for a variety of reasons) last fall, and think I should share it with you. I apologize if it brings tears (it always does for me), but sometimes tears are healing as much as laughter is. You're in my prayers.
"What Cancer Cannot Do"
CANCER IS SO LIMITED
Yet in all things
IT CANNOT CRIPPLE LOVE
We are more than conquerors
IT CANNOT SHATTER HOPE
through him who loved us.
IT CANNOT CORRODE FAITH
For I am persuaded that neither death nor life...
IT CANNOT DESTROY PEACE.
Nor principalities nor powers,
IT CANNOT KILL FRIENDSHIP,
Nor things present, nor things to come
IT CANNOT SUPPRESS MEMORIES
Nor height, depth, nor any created thing
IT CANNOT SILENCE COURAGE
Shall be able to separate us
IT CANNOT INVADE THE SOUL
From the love of God
IT CANNOT STEAL ETERNAL LIFE,
Which is in
IT CANNOT CONQUER THE SPIRIT.
Christ Jesus our Lord. (Rom 8:37-39)
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Posted by: Laura | April 28, 2008 at 03:03 PM
Sending good thoughts your way...
Posted by: sprite | April 28, 2008 at 03:22 PM
Sending thoughts of strength your way...
Posted by: JessaLu | April 28, 2008 at 03:44 PM
Lynne you definitely have all my love and all my prayers! We will all pray for you so you can enjoy that cupcake with out reservation :O)
Posted by: Peacock Chick | April 28, 2008 at 04:02 PM
Lynne,
My dad has lymphoma. He's due for his checkup soon, and possibly another treatment, so I know firsthand how scary the unknown can be. But many cancers are treatable and manageable, which is encouraging. Your life does change, no doubt about it, but God has been very faithful to us and I know he will be for your family too. You will be in my prayers.
Posted by: Debby | April 28, 2008 at 04:18 PM
Lynne, sweetie, who? What? Where? When? I won't ask why...there is no good reason. You've caught me by surprise, and I'm sitting here just worrying terribly about you and yours. Take care...I will be sending a constant stream of healing thoughts your way.
Posted by: Sharon | April 28, 2008 at 04:46 PM